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Well, this is real!. Little difficult even for me to believe or rather digest, so it's not difficult to put myself into your shoes. After what? Almost 11 months. I think that is enough of Hibernation for this blog. Though I'm posting after long time. Lets not be all celebratory, instead normal.
Since I have already written about good number of people, I deliberately avoided mentioning the obvious clues about this person. So that, you will have something as a take away from this post. Tired I am, giving disclaimers. But I still suggest you to refer disclaimer from previous posts.
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To start with! like most of the girls, this girl is very studious.
[ Yes, here is the piece of cake, I'm gonna talk about a GIRL. ]
She behaves as if she is programmed to be very dignified, extremely conscious. Which might be good, but at the same time its funny.
She to me, appears very frank and tries as well. She is good at negotiation. Anyways reality possess it's own question marks. And then occurred the answer of similarity, echoing the effort to tear the balloon of conventions and goals of society.
In short, she likes to be different, lets leave the level of achievement to her and wait for efflorescence.
Besides some serious stuff, She has a funny bone too. Despite the fact that colleagues feel she is bit flaunting and ostentatious, I personally never felt it. One thing I am in common terms with people is the little bit of artifice she offers you with a smile and there used to be lot of debates on this SMILE . It's like typical reception smile at some 5 star restaurants. It looks like she takes extra care and effort to throw that smile at us like a MISSION. I don't mind interpreting the smile in different way though like good public behaviour and expression consciousness. But that mysterious monalisa smile allows me to interpret in different ways. But see this is not something, anybody can be sure about. There are instances where I believed the possibility of her artificiality being a nature of her, which means it might be natural and real for her.
Despite all this I enjoyed her company for what ever she was. One of my motivators and lot of encouragement for my weird psychotic crazy things which people call as amateur creativity.
She is a creator herself. Always caught my attention with her CLICKS, where the priority was/is weirdness but not the beauty.
Finally, no matter how many times I backspace this, I'm still being forced to write this, Pay attention.
"She is not what you think she is, she is not what she think she is, she, once for all is capable & irrevocable. But its too early for her, for all these things. Too late for nothing."
Cheers
ﮌ ą ﭑ
P.S. Delayed & Incomplete.
This is
- J a i
- "Liberator who destroyed my properties realigned my perceptions." - Tyler
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Monday, July 26, 2010
Miss. v'll Miss You
Since then college has finished there was an apparent reduction in pace of posts in this blog..! and that is because of lack of motivation
We feel strange only when we fail to foresee the ease & comfort hidden in it for us - Swami Jai ananda
Ya I was talking about people and especially about a girl..!
I still remember the very first time this girl spoke to me [ I doubt if she really does.. :P ], That was after an english lab in 1st year where I played role of Nathuram Godse. This girl was one among very few who appreciated my presentation and congragulated. You know what I was then [ just don't wanna start it all over again ] That applause was very strange, which got me in total surprise and left the traces of emotional strength and pride.
After that..? I don't even remember when second time was.. I never thought about her later and didn't even felt her in class... But I have to admit here.. I started noticing her in 3-2 or 4-1 not sure but some time in between.. when she took paradigm shift in her glamour and appearance with gorgeous attires.. I am not exaggerating because I am not alone here.. many boys felt the same despite the fact whether they would express or not..! She used topic of table very often..
That was when I actually started talking to her in college and in facebook. [ Oh ya she is very famous in facebook.. :P ] But talking to her out of attraction or say self forced interest was for a very short span.. because the way she reciprocates makes you feel that you know her since ages..!
I would like to say "Beauty is not the destiny it was just a medium" between me and her..!
It became complete different scenario with her very soon that is because of the way she reacted to my actions on facebook and in chats.. was very friendly.. She is good natured, well cultured and pure in her words... I don't say I had great time with her because it was very short in real world compared
May be that was the beauty of whole thing.. as I was not looking forward for anything.. I don't have to be cautious about my actions and words I can just be myself.. so does she... May be that is what happens in friendship....!
Huh Now that we arrived at a position where she is moving farther in real world.. but facebook is the place for us buddy...!
Will sure miss ya..
Cheers
ﮌąﭑ
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
'Crush'ed
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I'm glad because "Who is your crush?" wasn't my truth question on the farewell day. Otherwise this post would be neither surprising to you nor exciting to me and to this girl..!
**
Those were the lines I wrote and saved in draft when I started this post and obviously it was before the release of year book which revealed the major surprise but still holds the ambiguity. For some personal reasons I couldnt complete this post back then.. but today I was reading a novel called "Anandho brahma" which deals with inner conflicts of a writer which pumped in lot of inspiration to me to get back to my blog.. :)
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"I dedicate this post to my courage and and individuality which were fading bit by bit these days"
*
Yes, She was my first and only crush[on a serious note] in my engineering. I do like many other girls, but she was like special. Of course I don't have any feelings towards her right now as I am a changed person. And I'm sure she will be the LAST crush for me as I have made up mind very strictly on certain things..
But things were different then.. I was very amatuer and light brained person with very few things running through my mind and I m sure she was the only important one among them.... and I m speaking about 1st year. [ Just try to bring back image of mine then..! it helps :P ].
I used to stare at her at every possible scenario.. I felt very close and connected.. Its not the first time I felt that but its just second time next to my crush Chaitanya from schooling. its kinda unique feeling twice :P...!
Thinking about attraction and feeling of closeness I eventually figured out the reason for it... Its nothing great but it is simple reson called "Similarity" Yes, I feel she thinks like me especially When I expect it..! though there are no greatest situations to illustrate.. I can remember small actions which convey a lot..!!
She was very dignified and reserved but used to be playful and jovial towards me [ I felt it, not a fact ] which kinda encouraged me...! She is extremely humorous which is exticnt in girls in fact never existed..!:) and she is one of the very intelligent girls I met... Though I spoke to her very less yet found many similarities and intriguing things... may be speaking very less is the reason for it...!
Having said all these the major boost was the rumour I heard that even "this girl had crush on me.."!! As I said it is rumour it can either be true or false..! but now its least important to know about its validity...!
What ever it may be.. she was my amusement in early engineering life.. Later I moved on with many ideas and philosophies and even I lost contact with her very abruptly..! I even heard and identtified a tinge of competetion later.. though I was never in direct competetion with that guy.. I saw his passion towards her..! [ I guess boys know whom I talking about..!] Factors like these might have side tracked me from her..!
Though she is not my crush now... " I feel that Feel " :P :D
Miss that ignorant life and you.. :P :P
P.S:
This girl and the guy who competed would make a good pair :P :P
this is what my experience was with her.. Yours might be completely different don't try to relate just feel :P
Cheers
ﮌ ą ﭑ
I'm glad because "Who is your crush?" wasn't my truth question on the farewell day. Otherwise this post would be neither surprising to you nor exciting to me and to this girl..!
**
Those were the lines I wrote and saved in draft when I started this post and obviously it was before the release of year book which revealed the major surprise but still holds the ambiguity. For some personal reasons I couldnt complete this post back then.. but today I was reading a novel called "Anandho brahma" which deals with inner conflicts of a writer which pumped in lot of inspiration to me to get back to my blog.. :)
*
"I dedicate this post to my courage and and individuality which were fading bit by bit these days"
*
Yes, She was my first and only crush[on a serious note] in my engineering. I do like many other girls, but she was like special. Of course I don't have any feelings towards her right now as I am a changed person. And I'm sure she will be the LAST crush for me as I have made up mind very strictly on certain things..
But things were different then.. I was very amatuer and light brained person with very few things running through my mind and I m sure she was the only important one among them.... and I m speaking about 1st year. [ Just try to bring back image of mine then..! it helps :P ].
I used to stare at her at every possible scenario.. I felt very close and connected.. Its not the first time I felt that but its just second time next to my crush Chaitanya from schooling. its kinda unique feeling twice :P...!
Thinking about attraction and feeling of closeness I eventually figured out the reason for it... Its nothing great but it is simple reson called "Similarity" Yes, I feel she thinks like me especially When I expect it..! though there are no greatest situations to illustrate.. I can remember small actions which convey a lot..!!
She was very dignified and reserved but used to be playful and jovial towards me [ I felt it, not a fact ] which kinda encouraged me...! She is extremely humorous which is exticnt in girls in fact never existed..!:) and she is one of the very intelligent girls I met... Though I spoke to her very less yet found many similarities and intriguing things... may be speaking very less is the reason for it...!
Having said all these the major boost was the rumour I heard that even "this girl had crush on me.."!! As I said it is rumour it can either be true or false..! but now its least important to know about its validity...!
What ever it may be.. she was my amusement in early engineering life.. Later I moved on with many ideas and philosophies and even I lost contact with her very abruptly..! I even heard and identtified a tinge of competetion later.. though I was never in direct competetion with that guy.. I saw his passion towards her..! [ I guess boys know whom I talking about..!] Factors like these might have side tracked me from her..!
Though she is not my crush now... " I feel that Feel " :P :D
Miss that ignorant life and you.. :P :P
P.S:
This girl and the guy who competed would make a good pair :P :P
this is what my experience was with her.. Yours might be completely different don't try to relate just feel :P
Cheers
ﮌ ą ﭑ
Sunday, May 2, 2010
The End
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This isn't about a person, just relax, no one is going to get victimized. This is all about the "End" we are in.
**
Turn back, have a glance at your confused faces, bring back the memories of those ambitious days, when you entered into this 4-year melodramatic act with lot of promises but least informed about your role.Retrospect about yourself and realize the metamorphosis. Things you learned, People you respect, Times you love to be in again and again. Innumerable they are..!!
This End is inevitable, in fact this is not a surprise to us, is it..? We joined a 4 year course..! It has to end in the 4th year..! But Irony is I couldn't believe the fact that 4 years are finished already..! Other day one of my friend was asking me about "College reopening date" ..! poor guy..! Wake up man.. everybody are about to leave..! They have their own flights[MS], trains[TCS] and city buses[bewarse] to catchup with.
No matter what means of transport they are going to board, At the End of the day "we are going to miss something" and very obviously we will realize it when we will really miss it..!! 18-22 is matured enough to bond strongly because unlike school life we doesn't share just chocolates but ideas & feelings on top of it..! Its hard to leave all these all of a sudden.
We need some platform to meet often. But we really don't have one.
Having said that, I'm glad for unknowingly creating a medium to poke each other in this BLOG. It is very evident that many are visiting this site, I hope at least this will keep us in contact for a respectable time.
So, as we are heading towards farewell on this 5th, I hope it would turn out as one of the most memorable moments in this end days. And I suggest every one to take part in this event which is as Unique as your "Birth" & "Death", Only once in a life time.
Missing I.T. A already...!
ﮌ ą ﭑ
P.S :
@ Everyone please don't forget to invite to your marriage..! :P ;)
This isn't about a person, just relax, no one is going to get victimized. This is all about the "End" we are in.
**
Turn back, have a glance at your confused faces, bring back the memories of those ambitious days, when you entered into this 4-year melodramatic act with lot of promises but least informed about your role.Retrospect about yourself and realize the metamorphosis. Things you learned, People you respect, Times you love to be in again and again. Innumerable they are..!!
This End is inevitable, in fact this is not a surprise to us, is it..? We joined a 4 year course..! It has to end in the 4th year..! But Irony is I couldn't believe the fact that 4 years are finished already..! Other day one of my friend was asking me about "College reopening date" ..! poor guy..! Wake up man.. everybody are about to leave..! They have their own flights[MS], trains[TCS] and city buses[bewarse] to catchup with.
No matter what means of transport they are going to board, At the End of the day "we are going to miss something" and very obviously we will realize it when we will really miss it..!! 18-22 is matured enough to bond strongly because unlike school life we doesn't share just chocolates but ideas & feelings on top of it..! Its hard to leave all these all of a sudden.
We need some platform to meet often. But we really don't have one.
Having said that, I'm glad for unknowingly creating a medium to poke each other in this BLOG. It is very evident that many are visiting this site, I hope at least this will keep us in contact for a respectable time.
So, as we are heading towards farewell on this 5th, I hope it would turn out as one of the most memorable moments in this end days. And I suggest every one to take part in this event which is as Unique as your "Birth" & "Death", Only once in a life time.
Missing I.T. A already...!
ﮌ ą ﭑ
P.S :
@ Everyone please don't forget to invite to your marriage..! :P ;)
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