Miss. v'll Miss You

Since then college has finished there was an apparent reduction in pace of posts in this blog..! and that is because of lack of motivation which I rather used to have when u were all around I easily could dwell back into all old memories.. but now its getting kinda tougher..! Still to write a post, few occasions are encouraging... Now - an 'about to happen' event is driving force here...

We feel strange only when we fail to foresee the ease & comfort hidden in it for us - Swami Jai ananda

Ya I was talking about people and especially about a girl..!

I still remember the very first time this girl spoke to me [ I doubt if she really does.. :P ], That was after an english lab in 1st year where I played role of Nathuram Godse. This girl was one among very few who appreciated my presentation and congragulated. You know what I was then [ just don't wanna start it all over again ] That applause was very strange, which got me in total surprise and left the traces of emotional strength and pride.

After that..? I don't even remember when second time was.. I never thought about her later and didn't even felt her in class... But I have to admit here.. I started noticing her in 3-2 or 4-1 not sure but some time in between.. when she took paradigm shift in her glamour and appearance with gorgeous attires.. I am not exaggerating because I am not alone here.. many boys felt the same despite the fact whether they would express or not..! She used topic of table very often..

That was when I actually started talking to her in college and in facebook. [ Oh ya she is very famous in facebook.. :P ] But talking to her out of attraction or say self forced interest was for a very short span.. because the way she reciprocates makes you feel that you know her since ages..!

I would like to say "Beauty is not the destiny it was just a medium" between me and her..!

It became complete different scenario with her very soon that is because of the way she reacted to my actions on facebook and in chats.. was very friendly.. She is good natured, well cultured and pure in her words... I don't say I had great time with her because it was very short in real world compared to its counterpart –the virtual .. But those few moments are worth cherishing.. How many has the fortune of spending time with their crush without any interest of further serious relationship :P..??  But I did.

May be that was the beauty of whole thing.. as I was not looking forward for anything.. I don't have to be cautious about my actions and words I can just be myself.. so does she... May be that is what happens in friendship....!

Huh Now that we arrived at a position where she is moving farther in real world.. but facebook is the place for us buddy...!

Will sure miss ya..

Cheers

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'Crush'ed

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I'm glad because "Who is your crush?" wasn't my truth question on the farewell day. Otherwise this post would be neither surprising to you nor exciting to me and to this girl..!


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Those were the lines I wrote and saved in draft when I started this post and obviously it was before the release of year book which revealed the major surprise but still holds the ambiguity. For some personal reasons I couldnt complete this post back then.. but today I was reading a novel called "Anandho brahma" which deals with inner conflicts of a writer which pumped in lot of inspiration to me to get back to my blog.. :)


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"I dedicate this post to my courage and and individuality which were fading bit by bit these days"
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Yes, She was my first and only crush[on a serious note] in my engineering. I do like many other girls, but she was like special. Of course I don't have any feelings towards her right now as I am a changed person. And I'm sure she will be the LAST crush for me as I have made up mind very strictly on certain things..


But things were different then.. I was very amatuer and light brained person with very few things running through my mind and I m sure she was the only important one among them.... and I m speaking about 1st year. [ Just try to bring back image of mine then..! it helps :P ].

I used to stare at her at every possible scenario.. I felt very close and connected.. Its not the first time I felt that but its just second time next to my crush Chaitanya from schooling. its kinda unique feeling twice :P...!

Thinking about attraction and feeling of closeness I eventually figured out the reason for it... Its nothing great but it is simple reson called "Similarity" Yes, I feel she thinks like me especially When I expect it..! though there are no greatest situations to illustrate.. I can remember small actions which convey a lot..!!

She was very dignified and reserved but used to be playful and jovial towards me [ I felt it, not a fact ] which kinda encouraged me...! She is extremely humorous which is exticnt in girls in fact never existed..!:) and she is one of the very intelligent girls I met... Though I spoke to her very less yet found many similarities and intriguing things... may be speaking very less is the reason for it...!


Having said all these the major boost was the rumour I heard that even "this girl had crush on me.."!! As I said it is rumour it can either be true or false..! but now its least important to know about its validity...!



What ever it may be.. she was my amusement in early engineering life.. Later I moved on with many ideas and philosophies and even I lost contact with her very abruptly..! I even heard and identtified a tinge of competetion later.. though I was never in direct competetion with that guy.. I saw his passion towards her..! [ I guess boys know whom I talking about..!] Factors like these might have side tracked me from her..!
Though she is not my crush now...  " I feel that Feel " :P :D

Miss that ignorant life and you.. :P :P


P.S:
This girl and the guy who competed would make a good pair :P :P

this is what my experience was with her.. Yours might be completely different don't try to relate just feel :P



Cheers

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The End

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This isn't about a person, just relax, no one is going to get victimized. This is all about the "End" we are in.
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Turn back, have a glance at your confused faces, bring back the memories of those ambitious days, when you entered into this 4-year melodramatic act with lot of promises but least informed about your role.Retrospect about yourself and realize the metamorphosis. Things you learned, People you respect, Times you love to be in again and again. Innumerable they are..!!


This End is inevitable, in fact this is not a surprise to us, is it..?  We joined a 4 year course..! It has to end in the 4th year..! But Irony is I couldn't believe the fact that 4 years are finished already..! Other day one of my friend was asking me about "College reopening date" ..! poor guy..! Wake up man.. everybody are about to leave..! They have their own flights[MS], trains[TCS] and city buses[bewarse] to catchup with.

No matter what means of transport they are going to board, At the End of the day "we are going to miss something" and very obviously we will realize it when we will really miss it..!!  18-22 is matured enough to bond strongly because unlike school life we doesn't share just chocolates but ideas & feelings on top of it..! Its hard to leave all these all of a sudden.
We need some platform to meet often. But we really don't have one.


Having said that, I'm glad for unknowingly creating a medium to poke each other in this BLOG. It is very evident that many are visiting this site, I hope at least this will keep us in contact for a respectable time. 

So, as we are heading towards farewell on this 5th, I hope it would turn out as one of the most memorable moments in this end days. And I suggest every one to take part in this event which is as Unique as your "Birth" & "Death", Only once in a life time.


Missing I.T. A already...!



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P.S :

@ Everyone please don't forget to invite to your marriage..! :P ;)

Mr.Emotional Atyachar

**  ~ This is how I see things ~ **

Hey Mister you were rarely real to me. I remember the days where I used to feel like watching a theater drama whenever I see you. This guy’s typical body language conveys both lecherous and orthodox attitude. Spend a while with him you will experience hospitality and friendly behavior besides that you may even feel unnecessary emotional exchanges. 

Having said that, I really don’t know whether it is good or bad for him, for me it is definitely not as I feel emotion is very valuable thing which we shouldn’t use unnecessarily, If you agree with me mister then better stop being what you are..!

Unnecessary emotions reflect artificiality and disability to analyze the situation; this definition is bit closer to this guy. His actions, speech, body language and in fact very sight of him evidently shows he is being over conscious about surroundings rather than being himself. I used to have all these notions or opinions about him.

But when I later got opportunity to be with him and know about his ideas, my perception about him changed slightly I mean intensity was lessened but qualities are still present with tinge of over sensitivity and unnecessary possessions.

No wonder he is member of Arts Club with his capability of creating excellent portraits and arts and the emotion I mentioned, as I was saying he is a very good artist, really commendable. Going more towards positive side if him I can’t ignore his recent act of unleashing a thinker, philosopher and also sort of writer in him. He has been reacting to every situation, thinking about and trying to put entire scenario into single context further leading to quote or premise. You might be receiving SMS from him saying “from my collection”. That is a really good hobby or interest. I personally am inclined to this act since my late intermediate life.

[I want to write some more]

Huh.! I can’t think of anything else than his emotional atyachar. Let me get this straight,  futile emotions are really futile they reflect your vulnerability and definitely wouldn’t make you unique especially when you are trying to be one..!

On the flip side of coin, not being emotional enables you to look at things with lot of courage and through vantage point.

Carry emotions but don’t get carried away by them [ from a collection of mine :P ]

Cheers buddy,

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Girl - Friend !?

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This post is to just surprise myself, this is purely selfish. The person I selected wasn’t in my list even a min before. But I’m glad for being weird all of a sudden.
Hey girl don't be shocked to see this..!!

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Before I actually speak about this person I want you to acknowledge the fact called “transition” that took place in me in last 4 years. I’m happy for this huge transition. Way back in my 1^st year I could not even dream about “me being able to write a blog” I was illiterate in many ways but was educated in some, among them “Learn to Learn” is my favorite educational policy.

So, I was ready to learn. But who is going to teach me? And here I present you the answer…! Undoubtedly she was the first one in my btech to teach me urban lifestyle about which I really had no clue.  Though the teaching was neither intentional nor planned, it was needed for me.  She even claimed she learned a lot from me. I would be happy if she really did, because that is something I could give in return for what she gave me.

So, in that fashion everything was happening quite fantastically between us, and no wonder we soon became friends by end of 2-1. This girl shares a lot with me and so do I. She has been part of my daily life, talking to her was always fun and informative, and moreover it was thrilling to have conversations with a girl, trust me I was thrilled. “Appearances’ deceive” she is one of the examples for that statement, looks like a nerd but has a lot of thought towards certain things at the same time has lack of emotional balance and ego.

Ohh yeah.! that will be only thing I hate in her, she is capable of conflicting from nowhere. But I was equally responsible for them, because I was not the same guy then, I used to feel shy and embarrassed to be with a girl in college, to be frank I was afraid, but she wasn’t, because, she was clear about her intentions but my attitude was like “What people might think”. Fuck man that sucks… doesn’t it.

 After surviving few routine conflicts she became very good friend of mine and I got better and matured when it comes to behaving with girls, further it didn’t take much time for me to say she is one of the best friends in my life. I mean it, No exaggeration, No women reservation.

Apparently we started spending lot of time together, roam around, etcetera…! And of course rumors started, so did misconception called Girl-Friend, I obviously don’t know when it started and by whom, But if some X guy was in my place with a girl, I would have started the same thing.  Just for the record I didn’t spare any ;). So, I’m not against those rumors as the name itself suggests “rumors”. But many took it for granted; surprisingly some went bit forward and asked questions like “Are you serious about her?” etc..! I was like “Damn man, I’m serious for your question”.

In course of learning many things I realized my idea of life is different from this routine love, marriage etc. which are not in my list anymore. I believe they just kill your individuality. So we both don’t have those intentions. I don’t know if this comes as shock to many of you, but definitely not to both of us..! What say girl..?!!

Totally she is one of the important persons in my life, without whom I could have been completely different person, but being happy for what I’m now, I thank her for what she has been to me…! You are a great support, good friend, humorous, entertaining and equally irritating.

I think this makes a good birthday gift..!! Doesn’t it? ;)

Happy birthday dear..! Still long way to go, lot more to learn…! 

Keep searching..! Keep going.

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P.S. 

All the issues and doubts are happily encouraged…! I know this post is bit sweeter than it should be, but can’t be rude in giving a gift after all she is my best friend..! So chill..! And get ready to comment. I know you will..!!

Man with million expressions..!

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This is not about the person who won the "poll"..! ;) 

I am writing this post with lot of vacillation, yet I’m going to write it frankly. I expect everyone to understand structure of my posts. I hope some of you already did. Structure: My initial opinion, How it changed later, and what I think about him/her right now..!

So don’t just hang around the negative opinions I express. Feel free to take everything

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The guy..! famous for his facial expressions, irrespective of their necessity. Guy who is over convincing, very enthusiastic and friendly, who must have spoken to at least 97% of people in class which generally is not the case with everyone, and with 85 % of them he has a good friendly relationship, but I wouldn’t go so far to call it affectionate but it sure is political. Yeah he is quite a politician in nature, like an out and out Andhra politician types when it comes to maintaining relation with people. 

I personally believe it is very essential but at the same time you shouldn’t plan, I mean it shouldn't be so obvious instead it should appear as your nature of sociability, and I feel this is where he lacked principles and selfishness to manufacture him with, rather he more concentrated on decorating him without actually making the product.

But eventually I realized that he is not being artificial or intentionally sociable but it is his original nature, which he unknowingly developed over a period of time. If you ask "is it good or bad?" Well it depends on what you need in your life. But irony is I became his friend, admirer, acquaintance etc., because of the nature of his I just mentioned, I'm glad for what he is and what he gave to me.

I entered in his league or say he came into my life in second half of my engineering and surprisingly I spent 3/4^th of it with this guy. He is the guy whom you could never resist to be with. At least we have many common interests and passions like cinema. He is plebeian of our class, well only after me ;). We then got to know each other and started sharing many feelings, have been discussing ideologies, shared huge knowledge, and built platforms for our conversations to happen happily. 

Right now he is one among the top list with whom I would share any immediate happenings of my life. Cliché is, he just understands me so well…! After all he watches hell lot of movies (English) :P ;) .

Apart from those, he is kind of orthodox and conventional; I would even dare to say he is timid. I have kind of hatred towards people who are conventionally timid but he is so exceptional at some other aspects which widely intrigues me and makes me forget about his lame approach towards some facets. I feel he does lack logic in certain things related to religion and familial principles which he blindly follows..! Hey it is just my perception [ damn i used this word like 100 times already ]…!

Having said all these I precisely want to make one statement

“If I’m sure of having a cup of tea with a friend from my graduation even after 30 years…! aaah it will be you buddy..!!”

But I expect to be in some where Africa or Australia doing some adventures in sets

preferably I saying "Action" you doing chases [ Indiana jones types ;) ]...! 

Fuck man..! I can't wait..! 

cheers to our movie

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"Ms.Lite" are you staring at me?

As post name suggest, this is the one question many of the boys would like to ask this girl, and without any surprise I am one among them. To say an approximate figure it would be 10 times a day and 250 working days per year makes 10,000 times she looked at boys in total engineering. That was both weird and little awkward to take that stare. Having said that, I feel insulted for having that kind of perception towards this girl.

Once we (all boys of our class) were returning in train from NIT Warangal. For time pass we had discussion about "Which girl do you like most? And which one do you dislike most?" - Apparently my answer to the girl I dislike was "Ms.Lite" [I can't believe how I forgot the annoying character then], If some boy remembers my answer, bells might have rung in his head already.

For a period between 2-2 & 3-1 my main problem was to find "what is the problem of this girl?”. “What’s wrong with her?” What is she? Why is she like this that etcetera…! And she always came by surprise to me. Because in my early life of Btech I used to have different definition of “How a girl should be and behave with boys". She was always miles away from that definition and life time away from my expectations. In total I thought she was nothing of a girl.

But now, my perception about her is not the same. Why? Who changed? Is it she or me? - I'm not sure about her but I sure did. I'm glad that I came out of that orthodox way of looking at girls, I’m glad I have all positive opinions hooked on this girl. I always felt this Ms.Lite is over expressive, fake etc. But eventually she proved me wrong…! She being intrigued about boys is just gesture of she not possessing gender discriminative thoughts, That shows she don’t have any hidden feelings even she does she is bold enough to keep them aside and behave.

So, girls learn from her, though there are few who posses similar attitude, I suggest even others to behave matured and open.

I loved the gift I gave to her on B’day [Anna wifuu jananam] :P :P

Anyway thanks for proving me wrong, keep your coolness all through your life, It might not take you to higher levels but gives you pleasure at any level you are in.

Farewell buddy 

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P.S : Not all posts contain ridicule and fun, It depends on particular person I am gonna speak about, If you are looking for fun alone I might disappoint you, I think this post proves that the statements I make are not intentionally inclined to fun.

Leafless Tree

Here we go..!, After a consistent malpractice and rigging being done in voting poll -“Who should be next victim?”- There was a lot of speculation regarding the victim, but it’s no more singular now, Yes.. I present to you a group. Which midhun often addresses as “Family”.

Inception:

I had a privilege (?) of being part of this group right from its inception but I’m not part of it anymore, Though it’s not a thing that deserves celebration it neither deserve a regret, This Tree used to have approximately 10 girls and 3 boys which wasn’t the same case later,  as time passed Tree underwent as many changes as Balakrishna’s hair style.

I was the one among the people who moved out of it during early stages, But Group was together despite the fights happening, I don’t exactly remember when its partition started but if I retrospect I could see some astounding changes that took place.

Rather than dwelling on reasons for partition, I would like to concentrate more on post partition scenario. Which is pathetic, I mean no one wants to be with anyone else there, of course there are only few left but still they don’t like each other, and I think I am pretty sure about this.  Only reason for them to get together would be sharing common hatred or gossip.

This wasn’t the way it used to be, those initial days were kind and caring when everyone were in getting-to-know-each-other stage,  eventually it became malicious and egoistic. For some good reasons girls I respect either stayed away from this group or later moved out of it, some hated still being in it..! All in All it was group without actually being grouped by any belief or emotion.

The Wise:

->Two girls moved away and caught up with their old friend and 2 new friends and named themselves as “Famous Five” - liked the idea..!!

->Another annoying-behavior, irritating thought process, self-obsessed girl moved out of the group for the reasons I just specified.

->Mr. Weirdo always used search for reasons for both staying and not staying with the group, I’m glad he was successful and happy at least for half-way.

There was a long and inconsistent conflict for a ______ between Weirdo and Monger

Monger was the Founder, Leader, divider, co-coordinator and also was (is) the only loyal person amongst all. He is the one who desperately want the group to be alive but won’t like any other to take it over from him.

He has all rights reserved ©

For us Conditions Apply *

The reason I called them WISE is because I beleive they are happy for what they are now.

I will bring out each character in my posts individually with more positive shades because they have it in their nature.

These people are individual great and good, There are many things I liked in each one of them but unfortunately nothing worked out as a group.

** RIP FAMILY **

Individuals Rock..!!

Cheers

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Mr.Weird-Beard

This is not Mr.Newsmonger-II; in fact this guy is not tall, not soft or not even stupid. But he has some moments of his own where he reminds us of Mr.Newsmonger. This weird looking guy who often changes his hair & beard style claims himself as a Christian. Now that is something I don’t like or rather hate about a human being. 

Let you be Lord Rama or Jesus..! You shouldn’t allow me to identify you basing on your religion or caste etcetera... Instead it should be your character…! . I’m not against religion, caste, GOD. They are beliefs, keep them with you, they belong to you and similarly others possess their own, respect them being in secular society…! Oops I think I lost track.

Anyway religion wasn’t the first impression I got on this Mr.Weird-Beard, astoundingly he was almost the first guy with whom I had an awesome humor session in class which later continued all through my 1^st year. We used to have a company of another most creatively funny guy. (I will name him later in some other post; He is one of my sources for the humor I possess) Could surely say we 3 had best time in our lives, at least it was the case with me.

I really enjoyed being with this guy throughout my engineering except during examinations. Yeah, you read it right, External, Lab external, Internal, Lab internal, slip test, assignment…!?? What not? Irrespective of the gravity of the exam, you will find him strange enough taht he won’t be the same guy he used to be…!! That is great talent buddy :O… get rid of it..! Besides that I have storage of wonderful moments spent with this guy, who is now busy in spending time with his friend-sister. (No offense buddy I believe you, but make sure you too believe you :) ) 

[I remind you guys, this just how I see things, No facts, not imagination just perceptions]

So speaking about Mr. Weirdo @ girls. I always felt this guy had an inclination of romance towards girls… I always have it with some girls…! But this guy was fortunate enough to fulfill his desires with some small silly actions and deeds, everyone know this..!! Am I sounding alien to you boys (especially)..?? No I believe. I envy him for having that opportunity but pity him for being so obvious in utilizing it…!

Jokes apart, He is one of the genuine admirers of my jokes even if they are of lesser range, been a great booster thanks a lot for buddy..! Been a good friend and inspiration in some instances but still has a long way in shaping his character and attitude, You need to come out of that orthodox hole and see the whole picture..! I mean it

Farewell, Cheers

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Mr.Newsmonger

Here comes the first victim, widely alleged…!

who is tall enough to recognize, soft enough to address, and stupid enough to ignore, and yeah.! I’m glad to admit that he has been a good friend of mine for an year and half, & I have some moments to cherish about too, To talk about inception of my relationship with this soft-sweet-wannabe Christian.

He was very helpful to me in all possible ways, and I’m very grateful to him. Besides helping he used to share little gossips from girls which were really not confidential [For example : Who is the cutest guy in our class? kind of discussions]. Who wouldn’t love them…?? My buddy has been a great source of knowledge to me regarding girls… Though I never betrayed him with the information he shared…! I am a person who wants to be low on emotional reactions… this hurts him... this is where I differ from him… because if you expect me to be same old 7th class student all through my life… You won’t be invited to my alcohol party.

It’s our nature to change.. coming to relationship’s life cycle… There never was something called understanding which we really need in friendship. Apparently we moved on with our own understandings and interests in our own directions.

Albeit we gradually lessened that best friends tag to friends… this guy has always been a helping hand.

On the flip side of the coin – he loves gossip, and he loves sharing them with girls more, You all know the unconditional relationship he maintains with girls, ironically hardly any girl questions it…! Whatever, I see him as puerile but sweet, cunning but not intelligent, hardworking but not crafty, ambitious but confused.

If you define “Friend in need is friend indeed”… then stay away from me…! I don’t want my friend to just help me rather should inspire, motivate, mould and finally makes me better…! This guy lost it half way…! But still is a reason for me to be what I exactly am…! 

Thanks a ton buddy.

Remember Materials don’t last Ideals will.

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P.S : Feel free to comment buddies..! provide me some motivation..!

& for those who would like to share any interesting information or any incident  regarding anyone in class, I will be pleased to receive.. that would be a great help , and your name will be kept confidential :), trust me :)

mail : rarely@in.com

The Me.!

I’m an asshole. Yeah..! I was very modest to say that, I deserve a bigger and effective word to describe me.

This weird nature of mine, it all started way back in some year I started to think about me. I am glad that now I give bit thought about what I do, where I stand, what I want… etcetera.

I have been evolving and I always want to be, as Mr.Tyler says don’t be complete, (I can see smile on your face kiran..!) In this period of evolution I am now about to end a crucial phase called engineering. As I would like to say I am in pre-climax and I want to retrospect the characters I met throughout the movie called SNIST especially IT-A.

I’m not here to write about things like, he is tall, she is ugly, that was funny, kind of obvious things, instead I will express my perception on things happened, people and their behavior, characters I observed and their extremes I witnessed…!

I am not gonna spare both positive and negative remarks of YOU… So fasten your seat belts and get ready for adventurous yet hilarious journey, which could be at times touching and at times mesmerizing…! Totally will be an everlasting memory for me, I hope the same will happen with you..!

Yours

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This post is 4 years old

As this small(?) lion is going to leave this habitat called 'Engineering' I just wanna say how each of you fellow animals tasted to me.

As blog's name suggests. I am gonna writ about people individually, who left their shades and reflections on me and they can be good,bad,ugly,funny..! probably any..!

** This is neither a work of fiction nor a compilation of facts, Just a perception alone **

*** Feel free to show your appreciation n anger in comments ***

* Stay tuned, you can be the next *