'Crush'ed

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I'm glad because "Who is your crush?" wasn't my truth question on the farewell day. Otherwise this post would be neither surprising to you nor exciting to me and to this girl..!


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Those were the lines I wrote and saved in draft when I started this post and obviously it was before the release of year book which revealed the major surprise but still holds the ambiguity. For some personal reasons I couldnt complete this post back then.. but today I was reading a novel called "Anandho brahma" which deals with inner conflicts of a writer which pumped in lot of inspiration to me to get back to my blog.. :)


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"I dedicate this post to my courage and and individuality which were fading bit by bit these days"
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Yes, She was my first and only crush[on a serious note] in my engineering. I do like many other girls, but she was like special. Of course I don't have any feelings towards her right now as I am a changed person. And I'm sure she will be the LAST crush for me as I have made up mind very strictly on certain things..


But things were different then.. I was very amatuer and light brained person with very few things running through my mind and I m sure she was the only important one among them.... and I m speaking about 1st year. [ Just try to bring back image of mine then..! it helps :P ].

I used to stare at her at every possible scenario.. I felt very close and connected.. Its not the first time I felt that but its just second time next to my crush Chaitanya from schooling. its kinda unique feeling twice :P...!

Thinking about attraction and feeling of closeness I eventually figured out the reason for it... Its nothing great but it is simple reson called "Similarity" Yes, I feel she thinks like me especially When I expect it..! though there are no greatest situations to illustrate.. I can remember small actions which convey a lot..!!

She was very dignified and reserved but used to be playful and jovial towards me [ I felt it, not a fact ] which kinda encouraged me...! She is extremely humorous which is exticnt in girls in fact never existed..!:) and she is one of the very intelligent girls I met... Though I spoke to her very less yet found many similarities and intriguing things... may be speaking very less is the reason for it...!


Having said all these the major boost was the rumour I heard that even "this girl had crush on me.."!! As I said it is rumour it can either be true or false..! but now its least important to know about its validity...!



What ever it may be.. she was my amusement in early engineering life.. Later I moved on with many ideas and philosophies and even I lost contact with her very abruptly..! I even heard and identtified a tinge of competetion later.. though I was never in direct competetion with that guy.. I saw his passion towards her..! [ I guess boys know whom I talking about..!] Factors like these might have side tracked me from her..!
Though she is not my crush now...  " I feel that Feel " :P :D

Miss that ignorant life and you.. :P :P


P.S:
This girl and the guy who competed would make a good pair :P :P

this is what my experience was with her.. Yours might be completely different don't try to relate just feel :P



Cheers

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